Throughout my life, I've often found myself grappling with essential questions about my identity, purpose, and existence. At a relatively young age, it became evident to me that there was more to life than the conventional teachings received from school, parents, and peers. My awakening began around the age of eight, a time when I started questioning my parents about angels and spirit guides. Surprisingly, they dismissed my inquiries as mere nonsense, even though the Catholic church, to which my parents were deeply connected, acknowledged the existence of angels. This left me feeling perplexed and somewhat isolated, unable to discuss my thoughts with family members who wouldn't understand.
It wasn't until I spoke with my Nan that I discovered her spiritual inclinations, which she had somewhat concealed. Her revelation was surprising but also welcomed, bringing a sense of connection and understanding. She cautioned me to be discreet about these conversations, as she believed most people wouldn't comprehend and might even view me as "queer," a term commonly used during my younger years.
Navigating through life without a clear sense of purpose became a lonely yet fulfilling experience. Despite the societal norms and familial expectations, I chose to give up alcohol and drugs at the age of 23. Countless jobs and hidden panic attacks marked a period of uncertainty, where discussing such struggles would have been perceived as a sign of weakness in the prevailing societal narrative.
The turning point came in the early '90s when a life-threatening illness forced me to confront mortality. Choosing resilience over surrender, I emerged stronger, defeating the illness and discovering my soul's calling in the process.
The subsequent years were dedicated to profound self-discovery, involving extensive reading, learning, and solitary contemplation. Viewing life from a soul's perspective, I explored the intricacies of human nature, the profound connection with nature, and the shared journey of all souls. A growing awareness of humanity's misdirected trajectory fueled my commitment to raising collective consciousness.
A pivotal realisation unfolded — that self-love is the cornerstone of my purpose. Embracing this love became a transformative catalyst, reshaping my life and illuminating a path of joy and fulfilment. Now, I find myself immersed in a state of profound self-love, eager to share this journey with others who resonate with my experiences.
The challenging yet rewarding nature of the awakening process has led me to a deep appreciation for who I am. Love and good permeate my narrative, reflecting the peace and contentment derived from my newfound understanding and connection with the universe.
In Love, Light and Blessings.