Passing the test.

After months of writing and covering various topics, while reflecting on my journey, I realize that I have covered many topics since my first blog. I have come to a time where my life is now free of any stress or worry. Everything that ever happened in my life did so for a reason, even if, at the time, I may have thought that reason was simply "poor bugger me."  So here and now, at this moment in time, have I passed all the tests set out for me before I was born? Have I now passed them in this lifetime? Does this mean my life is now free from all the negative aspects of life? Will I only experience love, happiness, joy, and only good things ahead for me?

Can I now embrace life without a care in the world, ready to face the rest of however long I will remain on this planet with wisdom and certain tools I have learned from experiences to help others? After all these implications of many years, even decades, of never really knowing who I was or even what I was put here for, I ponder: what was my purpose? Why did I take some of those roads that I did? What did I learn, and who did I become?

The first thing that comes to mind is that we ourselves are all we will ever need or want. That sense of home, the feeling we all crave to find, seems to keep eluding many of us. So, we keep searching, moving from job to job, town to town, until after many, many years of seeking, we realise that it is our soul we have been searching for and that has been there all along.

All we have to do is go inward and connect to that inner feeling. When you find or discover this, your life truly changes for the better. Once I realised it was my soul that I had been searching for all along, I felt this sense; it was a feeling of total peace. It feels so amazing to be able to feel this way; all those people who used and abused me, all the times I felt different from others and from my family, everything from my life before, up to this now moment, melted away as if by some magic.

If I think of the things or people, including family, that did me wrong in the past—and there were many who did—and the times that went wrong for me due to others backstabbing me and my own bad decisions, it doesn't faze or concern me now one little bit. It all seems so insignificant now. Those times were meant to be the way they were; those happenings were meant to happen the way they did. If I think of something from the past, I do not attach to it; I simply brush it away. Why?  because I am free, there's no need for me to react or get a certain feeling about anything from my past and the happenings that occurred. It's over, never to be here in my presence again.

Those times of loss and when things seemed to be a failure taught me to be grateful for what I had. From one minute, going from being very wealthy to worrying about where the next meal was coming from made me so grateful for what I did have, so I appreciated the flush moments so much more if they came back. A great quote from Friedrich Nietzsche - "What does not kill me, makes me stronger."

So, anything that may arise again will make me more resilient and able to deal with negative people, negative decisions, and anything that comes my way. I will deal with these feelings in the blink of an eye, and in a flash, they will be gone.

The past and all that occurred were shaping me to get to a point where I can now think, "Oh wow, I think I may have passed the test in life."

To be at peace with oneself and to love oneself deeply implies that you have evolved to a level where no one, and I mean no one, can harm you in any way. Being on this level means that death will certainly come one day, but you will welcome it because you know there is so much more to life than our physical form and the current happenings on Earth. And that's not to say the Earth' is at fault; it's the people living on it that are to blame for the current issues.

It's now that if I have to face anything in the future, I will do so with more wisdom than ever before. Whatever decisions, if any, I may have to make, these moments will be done with no attachment or stress on whether it was the right or wrong decision; either way, it will never faze me again. 

I will have the tools to deal with anything that comes up; I keep saying nothing may ever come up again, yet I know if anything did, I would be able to deal with it. Nothing can or will ever hurt me or my feelings or emotions because we are just on a journey; it's really no big deal; just be and love yourself, and take no heed of what others try to do to you or how they try to get under your skin.

If you feel at any time that you may have passed the test, you will feel like a physical burden has been lifted from your shoulders. There will be no stress in your shoulders, neck, and arms; it's a feeling of freedom and a feeling of being much wiser. It's not like you have come out of it unscathed, but you have come through it much more enriched, not only in your life but also in your beliefs about the universe. The wisdom you have gained throughout your journey is a testament to your growth or evolution and understanding of the journey. The journey is really pretty simple if you sit down and look at it through wisdom.

The main deep lesson for me in life was to love myself, to spread that love to others and our planet, to bless those who hurt and abused you, and to let go of anything that does not resonate with our soul, including friends, family, and careers. Live your life humbly and with love while following your soul. Then, you will have freedom, peace, and love constantly follow you on every part of your journey. 

In Love, Light, and Blessings.